The Sin is Bad, Justify It is Worse

I scrolled the instagram stories as usual and found someone I follow posting about podcast of Nouman Ali Khan. What I did next was downloading podcast installer. And I felt like I finally found something to slap my own face to realize that I justify myself lately.

"The sin is bad, but justify It is even worse."

Strike through my heart and myself to blame. While the podcast is playing and hitting me at the same time, It is lightning my heart somehow. If you have the same condition just like me, maybe you could try the same thing.

To The Man I Loved Before

Yesterday I finished reading Great Gatsby. As usual, there are several sentences from the book which make me interested. One of them is:

"No amount of fire or freshness can challenge what a man will store up in his ghostly heart."

Gatsby is adoring Daisy from his past and getting a chance to meet her later. Between those time, he grows the image of Daisy in his mind. And I think that is the start of the tragedy.

This thing made me realized that somehow I did that to one of the man I used to try to be closed with. I adored him and shaped his image on my mind. I believed he's kind and so on. Not that he's not a good person, but I just felt bad to expect him to be the kind of man I have in mind. Maybe he could see that. And that's the end of the story.

Although we are still friends, I think I have to apologize to him for what I did on the past. And we can continue anything, a fresh start for any kind of relationship. I seriously don't mind.